lerpudadiee

yes, yes. i noe nows exam time. n yes i knoe i'm not supposd to go online. but hey its only for 5 mins n i'f been studyin all mornin til now rite? so mebb i shud gif myself a break. anyways, todaes a fuckin gloomy n sad day. e rains pourin out n daddy..daddy's ill..its all my fuckin fault. allah sent me a warnin..n i was too fuckin self centred n jus ignored it. i noe i sound all weird n shit. but it reali is my fault....... if he ends up in e coma or sth (ok tts so suay) i dunno wad i'd do. i'd never forgive myself..ya allah ya tuhanku...tolonglah sembuhkan ayahku..dier tak bersalah..aku tk kesa kalau engkau ambil nyawa aku skarang..tolonglah tuhanku..amin. hais..i can blieve i'm cryin now. im sucha a fuckin disappiontment to him..now i'm more than ever determined to prove him tt i'm smart n no matter wad i'll go to U one day n fulfil wad he missed out on. insyallah..