bbq pit

yest went to d clas pit. sum outsiders were dare too. dadie..yana..zahir his bro n their frens..fahmy n his frens..blaadeeblaa. anyways it was ok..hehe. luk at d lame pics.


^before d bbq started


^ika's attempt at poledancin


^ika n yana. look alike dun dey?


^chibai pe yana. =)


^star lite..start brite..


^mwwwuuuuuuaaaaahhh


^lerp me, wud you?


^now hush lil babieys..


^lesson learnt; we all luk horrible asleep


^we are FAMILY =)


^we all lerp baby



^last few pics, in baby's car. frikkin tired..

i hate azim. i lerp nas

todae in skl i was such a in a fucked up mood. ferst tt nigel pissed the damn outta me when he hit me on my back wit d metal ruler. ok fine it wasnt painful but i was jus fucked up. mebb i slept too much. den at mt khai n seri hardly tok to me cos dey tot i was in a bad mood. gues i was feeling rotten after wad rohayah did to me. anyways, durin poa after recess i dint even tok to seri ili n ika. i jus sat dare alone n did my own work. pathetic. all these mixed up emotions and feelings were heavy in my heart, and its gonna blow up anytym now. dnt was ok. i vented out my anger on tt piece of mild steel supposed to b made into a gclamp. (ohyeeeah i got a b4!!) den after skl had counselling session. wich reali3 help me. i cried alot, talked out all my issues n probs blaadeedaa. mr james has to b one of my fave ppl in e world, i swear. he has tis charm tt alwaes makes me feel tt evritin is alrite no matter wad probs there are. den when i left, my heart felt much lighter n i was lyk happily smilin at nas. hehe. den after tt went to wite sands. bought nail polish remover so i cud (finally) pray. haha. nasrul is so lame. haha. i stil lerp him anyways.

*grins

blaadeeblaa

god i cant blieve im actually up tis early. anyways, i jus realised sth. i keep bumbpin into abgs frens. tt guy on d interchange, kai, those gerls tt dae, n now azim. wtf. haha. anyways, changed my blogskin. AGAIN. i happen to lyk tis one. so mebb it'll last a couple of weeks. yest went to sentosa wit larlienck. very nice. um i mean d beach ok. n i shant mention my results. lets jus say, i tink i'f given up on anytin n evritin. i tink god hates me. i TRIED changin for d bttr. i swear i did. i studied lyk shit, prayed all 5 tyms, zikir after prayin, was never ever rude to my mum n dad, behaved myself properly, n tis is wad i get. hais.








wad kind of damn life m i leadin.

lerpudadiee

yes, yes. i noe nows exam time. n yes i knoe i'm not supposd to go online. but hey its only for 5 mins n i'f been studyin all mornin til now rite? so mebb i shud gif myself a break. anyways, todaes a fuckin gloomy n sad day. e rains pourin out n daddy..daddy's ill..its all my fuckin fault. allah sent me a warnin..n i was too fuckin self centred n jus ignored it. i noe i sound all weird n shit. but it reali is my fault....... if he ends up in e coma or sth (ok tts so suay) i dunno wad i'd do. i'd never forgive myself..ya allah ya tuhanku...tolonglah sembuhkan ayahku..dier tak bersalah..aku tk kesa kalau engkau ambil nyawa aku skarang..tolonglah tuhanku..amin. hais..i can blieve i'm cryin now. im sucha a fuckin disappiontment to him..now i'm more than ever determined to prove him tt i'm smart n no matter wad i'll go to U one day n fulfil wad he missed out on. insyallah..