nulz is rite. she wasn`t doing it on her own. she was influenced. damn. that stupid cockless bastard. so pretentious. and i thought only gerls cud do that. well maybe you are one. you already do sound like one. i hope you`re reading tis cos u deserve every single fuckin insult i am typing down here. waddehell are you trying to do. give it up. it won`t work. better people have tried better schemes. and it backfired. i`ve done it once twice three times. don`t provoke me. ini ialah bulan ramadan. tidak bagus berbuat begini. i don`t want to have to do anything to you. your words are fine. but body language gave you away. you really think tis wud work don`t you. well try if you want. but success isn`t guarenteed. wonders what a little toyol cud do huh. got to hand it to you. you almost had me there last night. but too bad. your last message was an obvious giveaway. any normal mortal willing to forgive wuld`ve agreed to me immediately. but your messeage. yes, it was very subtle. but subtlety may give even the most scheming person away. you have an innocent face. but you will need more than an innocent face. you need wit. remember what i told you last time? "i`m stupid at smart stuffs and i`m smart at stupid stuffs" think about those words. `nas out~

No one really knows why this is happening.

But it's happening.

And everywhere you go it's just a different place.

You get the same dark feeling.

See the same sad faces.

No one really cares that this is happening.

We come into this world.

And we all are the same.

In that moment there's no one to blame.

But the world is black.

And hearts are cold.

And there's no hope.

That's what we're told.

And we can't go back.

It won't be the same.

Forever changed.

Growing colder everyday.

Nothing can stay perfect now I see.

why..

hais darla jus called. gave me sum shit confidential stuffs my GOOD FREN has been saying. get tis straight. if i were to make use of ur BRO(and MINE too) i`d still b wid him now. if my intentions were as u had implied, i wud rather break up after he has bought me e ring, bag n god noes wad other stuffs. dunno jus feel so fucked up. i mean. tis is sumwan close i`m tokin bout. so it hurts alot. u urself noes wad it feels. so why the fuck did u hafta do tis kinda shit? if ur not happy wid sumwan go say it to his/her face. these r ur own words i`m quoting. quite a wonder why u dun even blieve ur own fuckin words. hais i dunno. chattin wid mas rite now. i`m so glad i hav such a gd fren tt i cud TRUST. its ironic cos u`d only realise these tings when times lyk tis happen. u wud learn to cherish tings tt u hav been takin fer granted all tis while. anywaes feelin jus so sick rite now. i was intendin to buy her (e fren who back-toked me tt is) a 17.90 plush toy, and now i`m having 2nd thots. wadever lar. the truth wud soon come out. peace~ `nas out~

if just for one day I wish I could disappear.

just take me far from here.

maybe I'd find out nothing new.

maybe I'd end up just like you.

there's no solution.

give me truth to my conviction.

this constant pressure that keeps hanging over me.

it makes me feel so empty.

it's more than anything that I could ever be.

what else could you take from me.

it's getting harder to relate.

don't want to make the same mistakes.

it took me so long to find out it's right there in front of me.

too close to see what I thought was true.

I see right through what's killing you.

goooooood dayy!!

yes yes yes!!! guea wad? i dint fail. but tt sundar..feel lyk killin her..but hafta congratulate her..she really had me thr..ere's e story.."sundar give report bks to those ppl who pass..those who failed she keep ferst..den i dint get mine..so i cried n cried..den seri yak queenie n darla surround me sia..lyk tryin to console me..den when evriwan hu got deir report bks left, sundar called my name..den she gave me tis really solemn look..den suddenly she smiled n gave me e slip of paper..sayin 'somehow u escaped. again.'..". woooowww.. dint noe sundar has a humour. a nasty one tt is. hahas. aniwaes, i got a freakin 53.5%..n i`m completely cool with tt..aniwaes after tt went to c bernerd..crap lar he..so leceh. -_-. after tt went out to watch doll master wid nas danial.R yak darla n qq. nice larr e movie..mina is so cute!! hahas..den after tt darla had to rush off to meet up wid her tuition cher..qq went wid her..so e rest of us went to bugis thr..walkd2 ard..n we took neo prints. hahahas. weird sia..nv take wid guys b4..so pose all very kaku. but it turned out okae lar..funny sia.. almost all thru e journey we tok bout our fave pooh bear. hahaha. feel so bad. he`s a nice guy laaaarr.. =]. den oso feel abit guilty cos danial was e onli wan puasa-ing. den i kept sayin to nas "eh tengok budak kecik puase,,beh yg si abg besar ni tak puase ehhhh." hahaha. o yeha my afve pooh bear. if ur readin tis sorry i called u "cockless bastard" yest n sorry i dint ajak u todae. n more sorrys fer e tyms i lied to u..dissed u..blablabla. dun ask me y, jus feelin so generous todae. gues i`m jus all too relieved. okae mum`s callin. im off. luv yal. peace~ nas out

dieeee...

oh god i`m so dead. 10 ppl from 2f retain/go NA. and 3 from 2e. we are lyk so dead. haisss...gettin report bks on fri (wich happens to b my bdae!!*so bttr buy me sth*), and later on goin out..hais..dun tink i`m able to hav much fun..esp when i`m prolli goin to b one of those 10 ppl...darla jus called. 2 ppl outta e 10 in 2f has been named. *will not name em here*. hais.. i`m so freakd out.. on the bright side..todae i dint come skl..cos i slept at 1 last nite..n todae i woke up at one. actuali i set my alarm at 6..when it rang i switched off..jus wanna catch a few more mins of slp..n e minutes turned to hours of cos. mum oso hack i never go skl..endin aredi wad..nth much. now i hav a heavy feeling of dread in my stomach..feel so alone..mas`s rite.."theres nth u can do bout it now might as well not think bout it "..so tts wad i`m gonna do.

Pics

yest n todae.

damn im jus so evil. n i now yal hate it. so do i..hais..but i had to do it..aniwaes yest watched the grudge wid nas faliq andre queenie seri hafiz n priya. stupid nas. kept suddenly grabbin my ankle durin e scary parts. den after tt i was so paranoid..kept feelin sumtin at my ankle..aniwaes we all werent fasting xcept fer seri n hafiz..haha actually seri oso wanted to break fast but i gues she dint want to wid hafiz thr..den i felt so guilty eatin all e nachos n stuff in font of dem..haha..aniwaes e most scary (besides nas) was priya. other den tt stupid hand grabbin my ankle..priya's hand (which is totally hidden in e dark) kept pinchin me cos she was scared n doin tt she made me afraid too. hahhaha. lucky towards e end of e movie she changed place n sat wid queenie andre n faliq at e row behind us. wait is tt gd? no. cos i kept seeing sumtin beside me. -_-. i am sooo never sittin between nas n priya durin a scary movie..haha..but it was fun..yeah..nas was so freaked out. at e ferst part i wanted to scare him den he was so scared his arm swung sideways n hit my arm. owww..lucky for hafiz he was sittin a seat away. hahahaha. okaes larr..aniwaes now im alone at home!! u neo wad tt means? i can EAT!! mmmMMmmMMmm!!..okaes i'm off. nas out`

promise

What would you say, if I asked you not to go.To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me.Would you take my hand and never let me go.Promise me you'll never let me go.And now the stars aren't out tonight,But neither are we to look up at them.Why does hello feel like goodbye?.These memories can't replace,These wishes I wished and dreams I chased.Take this broken heart and make it right.I feel like I lost everything when you're gone.Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.I thought you should know,You're not making this easy.I never thought I'd be the one to say.Please don't, well please don't leave me.I feel like I lost everything when you're gone.Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.I thought you should know,You're not making this easy.You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...).Take my hand and never let me go,Take my hand and never let me go,Promise me...You'll never let go.You'll never let go.You'll never let go.You'll never let go.Make this last forever.I feel like I lost everything when you're gone.Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.I thought you should know, you're not making this easy.You're not making this easy.You're not making this easy.You're not making this easy.You're not making this easy.I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you..

Something isn't right.I can feel it again feel it again.This isn't the first time.That you left me waiting.Sad excuses and false hopes high.I saw this coming still I don't know why.I let you in.I knew it all along.It's so predictable.I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong) .So you don't have to call.Or say anything at all.So predictable (so predictable).So take your empty words your broken promises.And all the time you stole cause I am done with this.I can give it away give it away.I'm doin everything I should've.And now I'm makin a change. I'm living the day.I'm giving back what you gave me.I don't need anything.I knew it all along. It's so predictable.I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong).So you don't have to call.Or say anything at all.So predictable (so predictable).Everywhere I go.Everyone I meet.Every time I try to fall in love.They all want to know why I'm so broken.Why am I so cold.Why I'm so hard inside.Why am I scared.What am I afraid of.I don't even know.This story's never had an end.I've been waiting.'ve been searching.I've been hoping.I've been dreaming you would come back.But I know the ending of this story.You're never coming back.Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....I knew it all along.It's so predictable.I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong).So you don't have to call.Or say anything at all.So predictable (so predictable).Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable).Everyone that I love.Everyone I care about.They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable).And I know what it is.I'm ending this right now..

angels with dirty faces.

okaes actuali todae planned to go escape..but lyk tis mornin i woke up n thot "damn i dun feel like goin escape now". lucky e others dint feel lyk goin escape either..so we all planned to go watch movie after e paper..well e listening was complete crap..e supposed-to-b-classical intro song turned out to sound lyk sum techno remix..hahaha cos e cd was scratched or sth..den e razifs were so xcited hearin e song..hahas..well when e problem was fixed n e paper started cheating was so blardie easy. lyk i just askd seri e question she'll just gimme e answer..tt beruk so belo dint even notice anitin..well den after e paper bernerd was goin ard confisicatin stuffs. me n qiqi sprinted to e main gate frm e atrium..to meet up wid jeslin who had my hp..lucky us..darla however wasnt as fortunate..her discman n hp were taken..*shake head* poor kid..hahahs..well aniwaes after waitin, bernerd finally let her off..now imnort gonna reveal wad he found inside her bag..=]..hhaha..den we went tm..supposd to meet up wid seri yak huijing n li teng.. budden dey wanted to watch white chicks..den we all aredi watch so we changed plans n decided to watch wimbledon or sth w/o dem..den we saw katek n prassie at e mac..so bad..when we cum dey finish up deir food again..okae den more stuff happend tt id rather not bring bac..haha..den me qiqi n darla had to buy tauge fer my mum..hahaha..after we buy we went 7eleven..den i accidentally left tauge thr..hahahha..aniwae we went to small mac n met up with nas faliq n sum other guys i dunno. dey were goin breakdancin..den i askd nas for money to buy tauge he gave 2 bucks den can stil ask whether enuf..hahaha..e tauge was 29 cents!! but of cos i dint sae tt. den when me n qiqi aredi buy tauge dey were still thr..waiting for us!! awwww..sooo sweetttt..wait for ppl to buy tauge seyyy!! hahahas. okae larr..e rest i lazy to tell..busy consolin tis hot guy frm afghanistan..byeees..nas outs~`

queenie~hahahhaha

2 week anniversary huh? well guess we sure celebrated with a big bash. on queenie tt is. hahahahha funny sia. nort gonna spill anythin here. if u want u can contact queenie or sumtin..well i hafta sae shes reali a gd fren..hahah..btw me n iffah went to orchard yest..blardie fun sia..but we got soooo lost..hahaha..well serves me rite fer nort takin note of where to go when i go orchard wid ika..haha..n e neoprits we took rawkss..haha..but, dammit i cant put e pix here..hais..n PRABA dammit u! go change my name larr. -_- n im 14 nort 41 fer gods sake..haha..o yeha n tanks cos tis song rawkss.. my boo~ kkaes nas out`

bugis.

yest went to bugis..nth bttr to do mah..den saw tis ite guyss..haha soo cutteee..den we all kept runnin into dem..den i winkd at one of dem..den he smiled. hahah den waved, as in lyk wiggle-wiggle fingers kinda wave..hahah blardie cute..den we sat at e silver starr tingy..den dey passed by again n again..haha nth bttr to do sia..haha round n round..aniwaes rite now i sleepyy..hais..o yeha qiqi bout 2 lighters todae..nicee manns..lyk blackk..den in a shape of sum animal..haha..den she told me she'd buy fer me too..U BETTER KAE. haha..arhh..tired alreadies..gtg now..byeess~ peace~`nas outs

welcomeee!

heyyy! welcome welcome. so tis my new blog..its okae larr..ill make it more public..haha..okae ferst ting i got no idea how to werk tis ting..so gimme a while. so byee`nas out~